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Roofless Radio Deep East Oakland- A Grieving Mama

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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On February 25th, the year 2006, I lost my 16-year-old son due to gunfire. After that it spiraled downhill. I went rom alcohol to perscription drugs. From there, I had an A1 dissection heart surgery. I lost my husband five months ago. Thirty-five years I was with him. His sister sold the house out from underneath me, and I was one the streets. And as of tomorrow, BART is putting us out. So I have no place to go and no money. 

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Roofless Radio Deep East Oakland- Tyan

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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A: My name is Tyan, I'm here from Oakland. Currently I am homeless. How I ended up here, it's a long story. I got drunk one night, and I never went back home. That's cutting to the chase right there. And I tell everybody, alcohol is a gateway to everything else out here. Weed is a gateway to everything else out here. I have a child, 13 years old, I miss dearly. I'm not doing anything to help her right now. I feel terrible. 
 
Q: Are you experiencing some of the pressure the city putting on you with sweeps?
 
Today is actually my last day in my encampment. BART came out and gave us 72-hours notices, and tomorrow it's going to be the 72 hours. And I have nowhere to go. I've called 211, and it's like a fictitious thing. Someone's getting paid to answer the phone, and that's about it. It is a runaround. 211 does nothing to help my situation. 
 
I work. I start a new job tomorrow, thank God for that, as a detailer. However, I have nowhere to go. I may be back sleeping in my car again. I come out of a tent. I kept my area clean. My area, you know. And I helped a lot of people along the way, because I got a lot of help along the way. I got a really great friend I met, right out here one day at the Homeless Coalition thing. Mr. Steven Texera. He's a great guy, he's been helping me out. 
 
Q: One of the things we as houseless folks are doing is building Homefulness, which is a homeless people's solution to homelessness. Basically, we're saying, give us our own land to steward, to lift up, and we can build our own. How does that sound to you?
 
A: That is a great idea. Tiny, I pray the Lord that you spearhead that. That you can take the control and the reins, you be the CEO of that. And I'll be your elbow-rubber. You seem like the perfect person for that.
 
Q: That's what's up. 
 
A: Signing out, brother Ty. I need help. 
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People Skool for Poverty Skolaz- Ingrid

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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My name is Ingrid De Leon. Mother of a princess and three beautiful children. This is a story about power. Of leaders of organizations.
 
I feel like garbage. I was seeking help from my adoptive family. I didn't ask for money. I made tamales, so I could sell them, and they would buy them, and to feel that I wasn't begging for money. But for a moment I felt like I was in the clouds, because there were people buying my tamales, and I needed the money. 
 
My son was in the hospital. He was having heart issues. When I knew about the sum it would take to get medical attention for my son, I thanked the people buying the tamales. My son needed a pacemaker. 
 
But then, just as I was feeling that, I felt belittled. Because the person that had hurt me the most was again humiliating me.
 
He was in sheep's clothing, with a humiliating smile. I thought to myself, this will not scare the sleep from me.
 
I spoke to the leader, to tell them my situation. He told me we should meet up and speak. As I was shaking in fear, I went. I felt like it was the worst day of my life.
 
He who has power to be the leader- he made me feel like I was a bad person. I felt stupid, that I was worthless. He humiliated me in front of all his followers. He kicked me out of his office. I didn't cry. I didn't want people making fun of me. But I did find out, there's a lot of favoritism and a lot of machismo. And just for being a woman, I felt like I didn't have a voice.
 
This happens around the world. In families, in workplaces, in places that I never thought it would happen. I would think this would never happen at a church.
 
That's why there's so many people lost in different addictions. Because it's hard to trust anyone nowadays. Anybody can stab you in the back. And the saddest thing is that sometimes, it's our own leaders of churches. 
 
I speak to many people about God. Of the miracles that he has done in my life. But people don't want to hear about that, because people don't trust anyone. Because of all of this, I discover that in 2018, more than 30 percent of people committed suicide for the cause of a leader that has power. They do whatever they want with people, and more if you're a single woman. I learned that no one has good in them. Only God.
 
As a survivor of all these abuses, violence and discrimination, I have written this. Death is not the solution. It's not the exit. God is the exit for all problems. We just have to trust him, turn our eyes to him. And not to men. We have to live life, because it's beautiful. We should live like it's the last day.
 
Endless love. Today. Love today. Not tomorrow. Because we don't know if tomorrow will come.
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People Skool for Poverty Skolaz- A Day in My Life

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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A day they will mark my life.

When people, when they come to hte United States, they right away identify as Americans. They forget about their own culture, they forget about their own families. And some of our family members need support from the family.

And some can actually fit in these USA society. They happen to be people who humiliate anyone. Without knowing that they themselves can also be facing difficult times.

But we as warrior people, we have the fortune of coming from our ancestors. We also have our traditions. Which we don't forget about. and we're not artificial, like people that idenify as American people.

There are many forms to idenify yourself. But how to know, to know that theyr'e real people, or just being fake? Just like I went through. Thie could happen to anyone. No matter your race, your class, if you're rich or poor. People should be more humble, to better this world and to end all the wars. 

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Indigenous Peoples Day Reflections

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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On Monday October 14, 2019 it was the annual indegoous peoples day. So Decolonize Academy went to the sunrise ceremony at 5:00 am to be part of the dance. We waited in the cold for about 2 hours until we were able to dance. In the dance there were many chiefs, drummers and dancers. It was cool to see everyone in their trajes and all the different groups. Something I noticed was that there were more tourists than the other times I used to go. 
 
I never thought that in all my years of going there I would end up being one of the danzantes I would always see. The cold and the tiredness both felt nostalgic. Memories came swimming back into my head and for the two hours wait I was just remembering so many old friends and people I would always see. Once it was time to dance I was reading to go out there and try to do the least mistakes as possible.
 
- Akil
 
Being cold was something I vividly remember about this morning, yet there was much more to Alcatraz than that. We left my house at 2:30 in the morning, and me being completely exhausted slept through the entire ride of picking up all of my fellow Deecolonize Academy students up. The day is October 14, 2019, and it is this year's Indigenous Peoples Day. Most of America knows it as Columbus Day, the glorious day that a colonizer "discovered" America, but us indigenous people know it as the day to honor all of our ancestors who were killed by the ones being honored by the rest of America. 
 
We went to Alcatraz Island in the San Francisco bay as we do every year to honor and also celebrate this day of triumph and survival of our people. We are apart of the aztec dance group Calpulli Coatlicue and we brought prayer in the form of a danza sunrise ceremony. I noticed that there were more people here than last year, and I wondered why but was too tired to inquire further. Almost all of the Park Rangers of Alcatraz looked like Terminators. The sky felt soft to the touch, yet wet somehow, almost as if it was crying for its people.                  
 
- Tibu
 

Today me my classmates went to Alcatraz to celebrate Indigenous People's day, not columbus day because he was a lie. Indigenous People's day  was in San Francisco at a prison that is no longer a prison anymore. I woke up at 3;27 because we start when the sun rises.

The whole event was about the people and our danza to bless the day and send our energy to the Indigenous people today all over the earth. Danza is a spiritual dance that calls our ancestors and heals mama earth and that what me and my classmates did today. 

- Amir

 

 

 
 
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        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The Rock

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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On October 14th, I woke up so early the sun wasn’t even out. It was 2’oclock. My Decolonize family Tiny, Mute, Tiburcio, and I, Kimo, and more to come we're going to Alcatraz. We raced to the van wrapped in a blanket, in preparation for how cold it would be.
 
I was heading out to Alcatraz because me and the Decolonize family were invited to be a part of the Indigenous People’s day ceremony. I celebrate Indiginous People’s Day instead of Columbus day because Columbus wasn't a hero, he was a villain who slaughtered Aztec people for the pursuit of gold.      
 
The loading dock was in San Francisco’s pier. When I arrived it was like being in a butcher shop where they keep the meat preserved and Rocky’s hitting the cow. It was Tiny, Tibu, Mute, Amir, Akil’s family and me. We stood idle on the loading bay ready to head to the psych ward. 
 
It only took about 15 minutes to get to Alcatraz. Honestly, from the last time I was at Alcatraz I thought it would take longer. After I arrived it was still dark. There was a circle being formed for the ceremony. Their were so many people they could fill every cell in the place. 
 
Unfortunately, the first generation of people in the prisons were native Indgienous folks who didn't conform to the united states colonization. I would also learn that Alcatraz was only 1.5 miles away from San Francisco, which isn’t that far, but when you have guards defending the place and that water that’s colder than Antarctica, the place could be defined as a cold hell.
 
I would also learn Columbus never even stepped foot in North America. He sailed the Carribean and found the Aztecs in South America, Brazil, Argentina, Peru, Chile, etc. I would dance with my friend’s in the ceremony. It was about 15 minutes but we put on a show. 
 
We would leave the rock back to san francisco to go to denny’s by the pier. Fun fact, never go to Motel denny’s. They charge more and the food wasn't that good in my opinion. 
       

 
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Avalanche: #SaveArnaldo

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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PNNscholar1
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Arnaldo Rios Soto, Autistic, Nonspeaking, and Brown, is about to be evicted from his current group home.  
 
His crisis brought back a personal memory. So here is that brief, true, Kerima memory.
 
When I was in my teens, I worked summers as part of the Youth Conversation Corps. One of our projects was assisting efforts to reclaim the Palso strip mine. A group of us were standing with our supervising forest ranger on the top of a mountain of slag looking at miles of blasted fields and ponds filled with acid runoff when suddenly the rubble beneath us shifted and three of us tumbled downward with the landslide. The other two managed to stop and scurry back up. But each time I moved, the mountain seemed to respond by raining more debris around and over me. It was an avalanche. I was sure I was going to die that day. 
 
If we were to create a timeline of each pivotal event in Arnaldo Rios Soto’s life, I believe those traumatic moments would morph into a rubble mountain of suffering and trauma. Arnaldo has now seen the ground shift beneath him one too many times. An avalanche is happening, and Arnaldo, like me the day I hung suspended on a slag mountain, is scraped, bruised, too young to die. The detritus of a failed disability care system falling like rubble all around him, he is now being evicted from another group home on the excuse that money was cut from his care budget. 
 
Arnaldo’s life is measured by how much profit he makes for those who offer services to house and care for him. His family’s lives have been punctuated by seeking the land of autism care Oz, that place where Arnaldo won’t be beaten, chemically lobotomized, where someone, anyone, can truly see him as a human being and not a collection of behavioral reports, untreated complex PTSD and medications. They are tired, burnt out with disappointment in that shattered dream of an American mainland utopian disability care system they sacrificed and journeyed from Puerto Rico for in vain. 
 
What will happen to Arnaldo now?
 
What happens to Arnaldo now is up to all of us. We are his family now. He is in our care. So we need to understand how and why Arnaldo matters. Arnaldo’s situation is greater than his news headlines. His situation right now is bigger than my personal emotional reaction, informed by the fact that he once looked so much like our son that both my husband and I cried out in shock when we saw that video of him sitting in the middle of the street, holding his toy truck, police shouting and Charles Kinsey shot and bleeding beside him.
 
 It is greater now than Arnaldo not understanding that he was about to tumble down that cruel mountain of police interrogation for the crime of sitting in the street holding a toy truck while disabled and Brown. Arnaldo is now the symbol of what it means to be a nonspeaking autistic male of color at the mercy of a system that views the Black and Brown disabled body as a threat. This system, founded on eugenic attitudes, views those with complex support needs as burdens or cash cows. When the profit margin is not enough the cash cow is sent to the slaughterhouse. For someone like Arnaldo, who was harmed by agents of the state, leaving him without shelter and the complex support he needs is tantamount to destroying his psyche entirely. And returning him to a hellhole institutional setting like Carlton Arms is unthinkable and unacceptable. 
 
What that means is that what happens to Arnaldo now has the potential to impact how future cases like his are handled across our country. If we can act together and change his destiny it will demonstrate that our community has the power to transform the destinies of others brought low by this system. It means that the lifetime efforts of hundreds of disability justice activists have managed to change something. We need this hope because we multiply marginalized people have become the targets of hate groups instigated by those who feel that the current administration has given them a free license to hunt those who are oppressed and vulnerable. So what I am doing right now, typing, wheezing with asthma, pushing past joints that ache to write this is reaching out to say this is the time when all of us, ALL OF US, can help Arnaldo. #SaveArnaldo can trend on every social media platform enough to make those who made the decision to cut funding for Arnaldo’s care rethink their decision. Organizations can support Autistic Self Advocacy Network’s leadership and issue statements in support of the Sotos family. Legislative advocates can reach out to their lawmakers. This takes a few moments, a click, a retweet. But multiplied exponentially, collective cross disability community action could be an avalanche that forces a positive resolution to Arnaldo’s crisis. 
 
As I was sliding down a mountain of slag towards my death, two other people volunteered to lay flat, one grabbing the ankles of the other, and acted as a human rope. Five others held on to the arms of the person laying flat on the top of that mountain for dear life. Then they all heaved up and backwards. 
 
Together, they saved my life.
 
I am asking you all to make a human and virtual chain. Get him off that sliding bureaucratic slag mountain and back into a place where his family can see him every day and he can be safe and cared for. #SaveArnaldo. 
 
Peace.
 
Poor Magazine Lays out My position on catastrophic encounters with Law Enforcement:
 
Read and hear more about Arnaldo:
 
Aftereffect: Against the Erasure of Arnaldo Rios Soto
 
Aftereffect: A SWAT team, an autistic man, an American tragedy.
 
Podcast: Aftereffect — an indictment of America’s disability care
 
On catastrophic encounters between disabled youth and men of color with law enforcement specific to Arnaldo’s case:
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Profile of Amir

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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On october 19th, I was given the assignment to interview one of my classmates in Decolonize Academy. Tiny, my teacher in Jailhouse Lawyering class, assigned us to our individual partners. The interview would start with two people. One would ask their question and the other would respond with an answer. Then it would switch for whoever was answering to be the one asking.
 
I was partnered up with my friend Amir. The whole class were given five questions. I asked my first question, where did you get your name, Amir? It was a simple but personal question. He responded with ‘’I got my name from my mom,’’ saying it with a smile.
 
After my asking the first question, I asked about Oakland. The subject changed to what did Amir like about Oakland or dislike. He answered with a grim look. ‘’I don’t like gunshots, they make me angry’’ Amir said. Honestly I could relate to he was talking about. You could be having dinner with your family then a bullet goes from the dinner table to the back yard. 
 
It’s a scary thought. Personally the emotions he felt were ones that hit really close to home. I then asked ‘’what do you like about Oakland man.’’  He said, ‘’I like that Oakland is rowdy’’ I then smiled and said ‘’that’s cool bruh.’’ In environments like projects you kinda get immune to chaos because it’s all around you. You adapt and get in tune with your surroundings.  
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Profile of Ziair

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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He was crazy in my opinion. Jumping and shaking and twitching, filled with a manic energy that was somewhat infectious, spreading throughout the room like static electricity. Shocking me and revitalizing my spirit as he continued with his introduction.
 
“My name is Ziair.” Ziair lives in Oakland, the city of failed dreams. He confided in me stating that these girls be trippin, and wanted me to know why these girls be trippin. “Cuz they bipolar." that was all he had to say about that, but was really proud he got it out. I asked him about what favorite subject was in school and he answered casually, saying math. When I asked him why, he exclaimed, “Cuz I'm good at it man!”
 
Talking to Ziair was very interesting because he didn't say much, yet what he said carried weight. Each one of his sentences had their own little story in them and I was captivated by the way he told them. He couldn't stay still, almost like his body couldn't contain the words that were flowing out of his mouth.
 
One thing I remembered about Ziair was the orange shirt that he wore. It was bright and it contrasted starkly with his dark blue jeans and Jordans. His hair was in two tight braids, winding down his neck and bobbing back and forth as he talked. I see him try hard at math so I know the credibility behind his words, backing them up with complete confidence in what he was saying, never once doubting or second guessing himself.
 
In conclusion, interviewing Ziair was an odd experience. Talking to a young boy with so much energy and words spewing out of him. After the interview, he continued to talk and rap and go on different small tangents about this or that. This interview basically confirmed what I already knew about Ziair...He crazy.

 

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Where Do We Go? An Open Letter to Caltrans and the City of Berkeley

09/23/2021 - 14:22 by Anonymous (not verified)
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Tiny
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OPEN LETTER TO TONY TOVAREZ, DIRECTOR, DISTRICT 4, CALTRANS AND JESSE ARREGUIN, MAYOR OF BERKELEY FROM THE RESIDENTS OF THE ENCAMPMENTS ON CALTRANS AND CITY OF BERKELEY PROPERTY
 
October 27, 2019
 
Dear Mayor Arreguin and Director Tavarez,
 
We have heard that you are meeting this week to discuss what to do about the encampments on Caltrans and City of Berkeley property.
 
We have not been invited and we have not been told directly about your meeting, but we live on the property where you enforce your rules and are the most affected by what you will be talking about. We are not intentionally trying to break any rules, but we cannot be on sidewalks in Berkeley or on private property. We are only somewhat tolerated on public property. We want to cooperate. We want to help find a solution.
 
We need you to know what we are experiencing and we need you to hear what we are asking:
 
We are here because we have no other place to go.
 
For years, every two weeks Caltrans crews and the California Highway Patrol have come through to evict us. They NEVER say what day they are coming. If we don’t move fast enough or carry everything we own fast enough or are away from our tents when they come, they throw all of our possessions in a garbage truck. We almost never get them back. The few possessions we need to survive outdoors are completely destroyed by Caltrans workers and taken directly to the dump.
 
Because we have no place to go, we move back as soon as Caltrans crews leave and the same thing happens over and over again. Very often they take our belongings, but leave the trash. Their intention is not to clean up the trash. Their intention is to clear us out.
 
On September 19, some of us refused to move. After a while, the Caltrans crews and the CHP drove off. They left ALL of the trash, which had been piled in bags ready for pickup.
 
Last week, the residents of two encampments refused to move, demanding a real answer to the question, “Where do we go?” Caltrans crews did not come. No one collected the trash, which was piled ready for pickup. Everyone involved -- CHP, Caltrans, the residents, government officials, etc -- know we have no place to go. More and more of us will refuse to move until there is an answer to that question. We want to come up with a real solution. Won’t you meet us at the table?
 
More than anyone else, we have an interest in having the trash picked up. If you don’t pick up the trash we get rats. The trash is a health hazard for us. No one is stopping Caltrans from picking up the trash. No one is stopping the City of Berkeley. We’ve repeatedly asked Berkeley to help us and have gotten no response. The rats are multiplying and we are being blamed!
 
We, the residents, have attended a Berkeley City Council meeting, we have marched to City Hall to meet with officials, we have written letters asking for help but we get no response. We do not have phones, so we cannot call ahead and we do not have electricity or computers to email.
 
This is what we ask/demand:
 
  1. Berkeley/Caltrans: Don’t evict us until we have a place to go. Berkeley: You do not have shelter space for all of us, and many of us cannot go into shelters. If you want to know why, talk to us. We are willing to walk to City Hall to talk to you.
  2. Berkeley: We have seen a proposal for a sanctioned encampment, which could be a place for us to to. We need that to happen quickly. Caltrans/City of Berkeley: Do not evict us unless you can provide a lawful place for us to go. We will clean up and cooperate with creating healthy, safe and clean public spaces.
  3. Berkeley/Caltrans: Make an agreement that Berkeley will take over maintenance of some of the Caltrans parcels around the I-80/University Avenue Intersection. Berkeley should then allow people to remain in place while removing trash and providing sanitation facilities.
  4. Berkeley/Caltrans: PICK UP THE TRASH NOW.
  5. Berkeley/Caltrans when you are making decisions that affect our lives include us, or at the very least, let us know what you are deciding. It’s the right thing to do and you will make better decisions with us than without us.
 
We are holding out an olive branch to you. We are not animals but human beings. Please help us. Please listen to us. Please talk to us. You can email WheredowegoBerk@gmaik.com to arrange a meeting or visit us at the encampments.
 
Respectfully,
 
[Signed, the residents of the encampments on Caltrans and City of Berkeley property].
 
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