The Time Has Come

Yup, The Time Has Come And I just Can't take No More...

Clearly Time has Overlapped and the Silence has formed into a Poison Manifestation... 

I hold back the Pain Hurt and Betrayal. I have asked GOD To Lighten their Paths so that the Hate Pain And Poison doesn't continue to Spread, out of Control, Out into the atmosphere.

 

5 years. December 20th, 2020, and it looks like I'm going to have to be the one to make all of the first moves to righteousness, not Consciousness, but righteousness. Yup it's a new day and I was told at 3 a.m. in the morning. A message from heaven was sent through an Earth vessel to reach me, so I'm going to be obedient as best I can, despite the pain, heartache, and disappointment I have endured.

 

The reality is setting in really quickly. I understand it is not on my time, it is on God's time. All I ever wanted was to have an open line of communication, but more often than less we think talking is communicating, but it's not. Communicating can be non-verbal, and I have been paying attention to the communication in the silence of our other family network ... 

 

Yesterday I did my cousin Khalida hair. It was unexpected. She asked for 10 braids, specific. She is the only one that has been loyal out of The Clark Sisters. However, wait! There is another sister, Aaliyah, who has went out of her way to show me loyalty like her sister. These two sisters have proven what family feels like. The other two sisters have placed themselves against the family dynamic of blood versus water. These women have chosen men and self-preservation over Family Ties and bonds.

 

Yep, this time around I'm not going to pretend like I'm okay. I'm actually going to be okay. Now, I can't lie. I have thought about, and had, many visions how this could play out. Am I to be blamed for wanting to have a family connection with the only family I've ever known? Is it my fault that I thought my family would have my back like I have theirs?

 

And you know, I don't even know if having a conversation would even be beneficial anymore. At times I am confused. Parts of me just want to be regular and not operate in my honor. Curse people out for leaving us for dead. But another part of me said, this is your blessing in disguise. Family is not DNA connection. Family is those who are concerned about your well-being.. Period.

 

This Thanksgiving it is going to be different and right. When part of me Knows better I Get the Opportunity to Do Better. It is them that seem to be prospering, but I know that their time has come to an end. It appears to be one way, but really another truth is to be told. Summer had a nervous breakdown and her marriage is over. She's now divorced from the Muslim Abdul, whose family is responsible for chopping up Oakland's very well-known and beloved Chauncey Bailey, the news reporter for Urban Grassroots reporting. Or shall I say current events? Yep, that part.

 

Oh, you wasn't ready yesterday. I was able to be in the presence of my baby cousin, and I explained to her my feelings. But it was her idea. She said we should go to marla for Thanksgiving. I looked at her and I said, "Yeah, we should. I want to, let's do it. We can go together or separately. Just get there around the same time."

She said, "Yeah, let's do it cousin." Then she said, "I'm going to tell him Audrey's coming."

I said, "No, don't tell him Audrey coming. Let it be a surprise."

 

I thought my cousin Carol Lee Brown was going to be the one to gather the family, but to no avail. Then Leslie, I thought, was going to help out. She said she would be willing to, but again, to no avail. Nobody expects khalida to be the one to round the family up. And, well, she's going to bring me right on in! Set the seat at the table Happy Thanksgiving thanks-taking. Cuz I'm taking my spot this year at their table whether it's food or not. The time has come. I've decided To Go with the Flow. After all, I can plan all I want. It's all in God's Divine time.