by AudreyCandyCorn aka SistahSaveASoul
The days are flying by. Soon it will be October 20th, 2020, and it will be my deceased son Torian Dajour Hughes’ Heavenly Birthday. He would have been 22 years of age, my favorite number -- or shall I say, one of my favorite numbers in the whole wide world. When I was younger, I used to put my age up, and it just kind of fit.
I've Always Been Wise Beyond my Years.
There's a family story that Explains How it's all Connected…
When I was 2 years of age, my mother asked me how old I was and I responded, “I'm 22 years of age and I've been here before.” This SCARED her, and she kind of left me alone for the rest of the day. She was sure to feed me and bathe me, she put me to bed when the night hit, but as far as any other interactions, let's just say she didn't want to ask me any more questions and hoped to put the day behind her...in fear of What the Blue Eyed Black Hair 4 Teeth Talking Black Toddler Might Say... I Already Was Different In Every Aspect. Nothing like my Older Siblings. She Was SHOCKED the lil Gurl She Birthed From Her African Brown Heavily melanated Body Made That Statement... Mother Got lost in my Eyes and Let Me be...
Laugh Out loud...
To this day, it's one of our favorite funny family Stories We Share, and this is why 22 is so significant to me and my family.
Even some of my closest friends know the story and have lived to Bear Witness as I grew up, repeating the age 22 multiple times in my Journey’s Walk of Life...
Moving Forward, I NOW am a Mom and I have 3 sons: Amir and Ziair, Torian Is Now Gone...he's a great Ancestor
I miss my son. I imagined what life would be like if he was alive, living to reach the age 22. I used to think of the form of his mustache Would Take...
I also thought about his body Mass Build. I wondered the type of young lady selection he'd bring home to me, making Her his Future Wife.
I envisioned his style of dress, maintaining character in Corporate America, Working Against the 9 to 5.
I hoped to See His Offspring, My Seed, Direct Blood line Never to Manifest Robbed x4...
I Prayed That Before his Spirit Leave His Body, his Soul is Clean And Acceptable To Be Eternally On the Right Hand of God.
I Pray the SAME Prayer For All my Children ....
I Gave My Word To God While My 1st born was in my Tummy, I Give back My 1st living Sacrifice...
I Swore I Would Do my VERY BEST JOB
To Serve and Protect As Best i can...
I Yearn To Know Who My Son Would Be.
October 20th of 2020