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by Joe B. We’ve heard of people while living their lives discover by accident, change, or desperation finds another call other than what they’ve been taught or trained for? It must be psychologically terrifying to have your life change because something inside clicks and suddenly you cannot be satisfied with what was a so called normal life. I’m beginning to understand because its happening to me! I find out about "The Hotel Utah" by a ‘PO Poet named Pitts. Eventually, inside the combo bar, resturant and Live Performance place. It’s different, calming, relaxing, and I’ve performed poetry and performed "Blood Bonded" a 3 part short story that’s a cross between science fiction, romance Legs shaking, sputtering, making mistakes but getting through it is slow torture but worth going through. I couldn’t finish my 2nd and 3rd parts finally over I’ve thought about songwriting but letting someone else sing. Problem writer of song should at least interpreted their way before someone else and if they cannot convey it with their voice then others can help in that process. As a high school kid I was literally speared in my throat by a guy using a grocery cart with steel poll vault. I’ve never sung because I don’t believe that part of me felt severely damaged. Recently wisps of music, melody, lyrics, are in my ears and I have no idea why its happening now! I bought my brother’s electric piano for $200. I hope to learn how to read, write, compose music and maybe sing. Its absolutely odd how things happen.how does reciting poems, prose turn into and urge to write, compose, sing songs? What scares me is not publicly failing on stage because at least I tried; my worry is that the incident that happened to me so long ago changed my vocal cords to sound other than a raspy or that there was no damage at all. What if my voice has a quality others hear and love and I don’t realize its effect on people. Don’t think I’ll get fame, fortune, over this because of my age. Doing learning to do this younger folks would ignore me, others may listen and learn but if planets and stars are aligned and it happens it would scare me all to hell that somewhere some teeny bop girl/guy swoons or faints from my voice, lyrics, and song(s) I sing, or sung. As for the groupie thing having tender flesh could cause all manner of paternity suit problems. That won’t happen, I’ll sing a song I’ve written hope not to embarrass myself too badly. Of course if a "So Weird" episode happens in my life I’ll ride it out so my mother and I can have homes close to each other and maybe a few others. Don’t know if I have any talent in those areas, if this is a new career move or a false start. May I ask the people young or older who are, were singer songwriters, or written songs for other people to sing. How did they know their paths or what led them to it and how hard to follow once on it? One thing for sure as the late Mr. Joseph Campbell said " Follow Your Bliss and doors will open where you never expected them." Something’s calling me almost forcing me into this and I’ve learned to listen, flow, not fight what’s pulling at me. As scary as this is for me if I do not follow this my life could be less full than it can be… Bye Please send donations to For Joe only my snail mail: Email: askjoe@poormagazine.org |