Well,birthday's over. Journals and website. May I have more luck with websites
it not journal writing.
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by Joe B. Last Journal&"S" Site A packet arrived the night before touting a health product that should tried out before selling. Makes sense to me when selling a product one should test its authenticity before trying to sell it to someone else. On the day of my fiftieth I had a few diary or journals given to me by Poor Magazine some weeks ago after moving to another location a number of items were being tossed (thrown away because they became so much unneeded junks. My reason for waiting a few decades is because when I was younger there were many journals however becoming a houseless transient moving from shelter to mama’s house, lady friends,and Multi Service Center’s to help get me out the roving circle of revolving temporary sleeping spaces. Lots of my poems,short stories I began writing to keep my sanity is lost but most of my journals are lost forever some stolen, ripped up while I’m out looking for work or later on work fair. For years PM and some friends of mine urged me to begin writing a diary or journal. I always thought of diary as what little girls and women do,between the pages are delicate dreams fairly dripping with emotion,drenched in their first secret crushes, fancies,and hurts. Some of the secrets show the first subtle hints of girlish attempts of attraction for boys,girls, or both though they may not know it at the time. From buds of erotic romance,titillation,a growing knowledge of changes of womanhood. Their first embarrassed blooding can be mortifying and dreadful for young girls with only father’s, brother’s and no sibling sister’s or mothers to help them through this wondrous transition to youthful womanhood. All the extraneous, bubbly,romantic fantasies of individuals,groups, movie,TV,star,athletes male or female. Regular people they admire but would never admit those people because it’s too personal. The embarrassment factors for the desired object is either too young, old,or is otherwise not part of there in-group. For these and other reasons I’ve delayed writing anything other than poems,long or short off wall/color columns. Only this year,on my birthday did I start. Even then unlike young girls and women pouring their intimate selves between pages that are closed and under lock and key. My thoughts are just that mine. Deeper ones will be place in another journal they will be full of angst, lust,love,fevered dreams, concepts,ideas,many unorganized nebulous gossamer things. Its difficult splitting,swirling, tumultuous,emotional urges, and feeling to another books women don’t split themselves up,what they don’t wish to write that they don’t. So use to self-censoring few fall into the male trap of compartmentalizing their lives but maybe they too are learning to compartmentalize it could be a good thing when no overused. So that’s one ongoing item on my to-do list. There is a site created by women on line for those who are not sick, psychotic,neurotic,or have nymphomania. You know of which I speak. It is a rotten shame that grown,mature,women earning money and as my own mother said about me (her son)‘F-ing everyday cannot get off because of our puritanical Pleasure = Punishment - Sex=Death, Religious Right,Church and State co-mingling. When are women free to just be? Glad they’ve got their bang on. Those same R-R folks are same ones try to make age a cut off factor as in if your in 60’s,70’s,80’s and beyond say "You can’t do that,at your age; disgraceful,undignified, and just plain wrong." Ladies,youthful,young looking mature women thanks for a reality check. I just receive my A.A. R.P.[American Association of Retired People] temporary member ship card. My biological age doesn’t jive with chronological and as life extension I hope will keep it that way. So to the women and their honest in-your-face site… Sorry,I gave myself a lovely visual. You know what I mean ladies. though I’m not movie, TV,video star handsome, as guys would say,"Cover the head and thing good times." I always worry about my pictures few people are perfect specimens even if they look that way so I’ll place a few up ready for rejections after that safe "S" bedding for those grown folks beyond surface ready to get busy. For this site created for/by woman not to the exclusion but inclusion for getting their grove on without static please look up Ostelljazz@hotmail.com My home PC is down and I’ve no webcam. I’m so out of date, I’d rather sit in a restaurant, museum, cafe, or Golden Gate Park long walks, talks, instead of wasting excess energy dancing. (I’d to learn ballroom dancing). In place of sweaty separate lone dancing. Ladies I love dancing but want Ballroom and other close body dancing rather than being far away sweating up clothes and showing off. Any personal questions or comment(women only) about the writer Please send donations to Poor Magazine
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