After turning 50,I want more. Puredom like freedom smells great. My one worry,dying before completing
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by Joe B. Two Weeks And Half A Century Later Last Saturday two American’s died both of humble origins. One rose to prominence with a genius ear, voice, music, and lyrical talents. The other able to make an audience suspend its belief first by his sheer voice, second by physical presence. One becomes leader of superpower while another changes hearts and minds with his inner vision his second sight more powerful non seeing orbs. Both gone, one way too soon, and yet both communicators to the masses in their perspective. Both belong to the ages. Only Jesus and Angels guarding gates of Heaven or Hell can judge now it’s no longer in our frail mortal hands. Its nearly two weeks after my 50th birthday. So far my health is excellent, I’m a randy old goat instead of a young guy. Funny, how women and men at certain ages are deemed dirty old men, women because they still in their hearts, minds, and physically able to show emotions of lust, love and caring for others. I might as well keep my satyr status even in this conservative climate of sex = death climate. I cannot even say it wasn’t planned, this is what happens when people in their youth do little or no drinking, smoking, drugs, or bed hopping. A positive consequence is a body and mind fairly bursting with excess energy though having good genes also help. I don’t regret not being married at this time many in my situation aren’t, some all of us are not mommy and daddy material. If I had gotten properly hitched I would’ve stayed a Certified Nurses Assistant/ Dietary or Kitchen Helper working many overtime hours to support my family. I would not have learned about painting, black & white photography and how to use chemicals darkroom to develop films, and later with POOR Magazine silk screening, reporting, writing columns, radio production, reading and speaking from scripts. Lots of interns entered, learned, and exited PM’s classes better informed, with multi faceted tools in the ever-changing workplace. Deciding my direction has been difficult but its clear a 9to5 job is not I unless I am able to choose my hours. Whether its voice over work, reading shortened sound bites of my written I-net columns on radio, or by some fluke on TV even if its cable it’d be a regular gig and who knows some cable shows get grabbed to become national. Travel, languages, tinkering with electronics, Electro- magnetism and other pieces of lawful and especially outlawed or forbidden science. As for the eternal mystery that is woman more intense study, learning, mental and physical contact is a given in less taking and more giving that always opaque, clouded, speaking-in-tongues earthy mother’s natural wisdom. I know in my columns I’ve argued, was harsh, and really overstepped my bounds in the discussions of women and their multi sexual, dimensional, emotional selves. There is only three ways to completely understand the opposite sex: Ok,that maybe a little too far out for many folks out there. If somehow women can think clearly through deep emotional pain for solutions while few men cannot.(Some can) It seems logical to find out how this natural higher brain can be made to improve our species. If it were to become reality guess what men would think before talking, be less color blind,be more independent of opposite sex and yet not worry about loneliness. Men’s life span will be drastically increased and the only other biological limitation would be not being able to carry offspring within them. I tell you some men then most of them after a time would be able to take the pain of giving birth. They’ve already they are as nurturing and selfless in giving their lives for children and family as women are its just few are given the chance. Imagine if men conceived children as women do? Women have always said men would change all the abortion laws if they gave birth, true. They also would fight to prove they too could give birth,nurture and raise children. It would no longer be an uneven playing field with women saying,"Men couldn’t deal with the pain." Women easily forget that if men were able to give birth war would be over, life more important because they’d know how precious, perilous,and tenuous without ever going to a war. Women have their ("We create life, you just contribute sperm." They’d never be able to make that boast in supreme superiority of ultimate power. And what if men decided to have children without women’s wombs using their own it become academic that is the so-called superior sex. Not that I would want to have a child but if by a miracle I was younger and given the choice. I’d like to see if I,a man could carry a child to term. If it came to a choice between a healthy infant and my death,then gladly dead I’d be. I would watch over my child unable to my earthly bond until I know my child was safe and happy. Only then would I appear to my child,her/his adopted parents and or wife/husband and happily go to my rest. Hey ladies,this is what guys also think about too. you’re not the only ones with deep emotional/intellectual, sensitive feelings. Just because you express it more openly and verbally better does not mean your more open. It just seems that way. I’ve said enough. What have women whatever your age have to say about it?(Will you say anything its all mute… For Now! Please send donations to Poor Magazine
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